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To The 2017 Me

Posted on April 25, 2020 by Bethany Purves

To the 2017 me,

JLS Saved My Life.

Posted on March 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

Okay. Hear me out. I know this is weird. I get what you’re thinking. But the title is true, we don’t believe in clickbait here. JLS honestly did save my life. More than once. I’ll give you some backstory.

Personal Update – One Month Clean!

Posted on March 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

*Trigger warning – self harm, suicidal thoughts*

It’s been a long month. A long, long, long month. I haven’t really given an update in the last few weeks; I briefly posted about the self harm and then the awful death of Caroline Flack, but nothing else.

So hi. Here’s a little update I guess?

I’m officially one month clean from self harm!

This is mental illness.

Posted on February 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

This is mental illness.

Heartbreak.

Posted on February 6, 2020 by Bethany Purves

I’ve been wanting to write about this for so long. I’ve kinda touched on it in the past posts, but I’ve always wanted to use this blog to educate people and raise awareness. I’ve tried to keep my personal life out of it. But I can’t do that right now. I can’t keep these emotions in anymore. It feels like they’re killing me. This isn’t a cry for help – least I don’t think it is anyway.

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

Posted on January 17, 2020 by Bethany Purves

Borderline Personality Disorder (aka Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder; BPD; EUPD) is a mental disorder that changes the way you think, feel, and react on a daily basis. It’s a really tough disorder to live with. It affects me every minute of the day. I know a lot of people don’t really know what it is exactly, so I’m gonna explain it in the simplest way.

Breaking Up with Borderline Personality Disorder

Posted on January 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

Love. How fun is it? It’s one of the only things in life that we all crave. It can be the most beautiful emotion in the world, or it can be the most crippling feeling in the world. Hands up if you’ve ever been heartbroken. I’m sure most of us have. Do you remember how you felt in that moment when you knew a relationship was over? Sad? Angry? Heartbroken? Now multiple them emotions by 10,000. There you have the feeling of a break up when you have Borderline Personality Disorder.