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I’m Back…?

Posted on March 9, 2021 by Bethany Purves

I haven’t written in a long time. Apparently a worldwide pandemic can really drag me down. Who would’ve guessed it.

I’ve realised in my time away that I miss writing, but I think I want to change it up. I have a lot of opinions about this world. So I think I’ll be writing in a diary format. Makes sense with the name of this anyway. I also won’t be sharing this on my personal social media platforms, so if you happen to find this then congratulations – you’ve stumbled onto the ramblings on a mentally unstable 22-year-old woman who has a LOT of opinions about this society we’re forced to live in.

Give me a follow in you’re interested in reading my opinions on mental health, politics, disability, and anything else that peaks my interest. Would love for you to join!

New Chapters Don’t Erase Old Problems

Posted on June 27, 2020 by Bethany Purves

So I have been very quiet in regards to this blog lately, but I think that we can all agree that life for everyone has been crazy. From the pandemic to the BLM movement; the world has massively been throwing a lot of challenges our way.

To The 2017 Me

Posted on April 25, 2020 by Bethany Purves

To the 2017 me,

Look After Yourself to Save Others

Posted on March 28, 2020 by Bethany Purves

I think saying that a lot of s**t has gone down since the last time that I posted would be the understatement of the century. It’s been a weird weird few weeks. So I kinda just wanted to jump on here to send my love to everyone. I hope you and your loved ones are all safe.

JLS Saved My Life.

Posted on March 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

Okay. Hear me out. I know this is weird. I get what you’re thinking. But the title is true, we don’t believe in clickbait here. JLS honestly did save my life. More than once. I’ll give you some backstory.

Personal Update – One Month Clean!

Posted on March 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

*Trigger warning – self harm, suicidal thoughts*

It’s been a long month. A long, long, long month. I haven’t really given an update in the last few weeks; I briefly posted about the self harm and then the awful death of Caroline Flack, but nothing else.

So hi. Here’s a little update I guess?

I’m officially one month clean from self harm!

We’re failing as a society.

Posted on February 16, 2020 by Bethany Purves

So everybody has heard the tragic news of Caroline Flack’s death. There’s been a lot of controversy around this already in the 24 hours since it’s been announced. People are jumping online to pay respects, others are attacking them people because they were the ones that slated her in the past, and then there’s the ones that are saying ‘good riddance’.

This is mental illness.

Posted on February 8, 2020 by Bethany Purves

This is mental illness.

Heartbreak.

Posted on February 6, 2020 by Bethany Purves

I’ve been wanting to write about this for so long. I’ve kinda touched on it in the past posts, but I’ve always wanted to use this blog to educate people and raise awareness. I’ve tried to keep my personal life out of it. But I can’t do that right now. I can’t keep these emotions in anymore. It feels like they’re killing me. This isn’t a cry for help – least I don’t think it is anyway.

What is Borderline Personality Disorder?

Posted on January 17, 2020 by Bethany Purves

Borderline Personality Disorder (aka Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder; BPD; EUPD) is a mental disorder that changes the way you think, feel, and react on a daily basis. It’s a really tough disorder to live with. It affects me every minute of the day. I know a lot of people don’t really know what it is exactly, so I’m gonna explain it in the simplest way.